IT TOOK ME THREE HOURS to write this line. Seriously. My very first blog and I have writer’s block. See, it’s been ten years since my last essay… Damn, has it really been 10 years since I graduated college?! Everything seem like a blur now. What have I been doing with my life? For someone who loves writing, I should have been keeping journals and diaries and put into words the trivialities of my life. Instead, I let it pass me by. gad, 10 years. It may sound strange to you that I would act surprised and regretful, however under normal events, you don’t really think about your life as in a movie- detailed and layed out perfectly, right? You tend to live from day to day, passing weeks and months and years and not stop for even a day to assess what you’ve been doing so far. You simply exist. In the process you’re often consumed with your today, focused on your present without realizing that your present has taken away some of the things you love to do, hide your passions deep down. Until 10 years later you remember… "Hey, I used to love writing! What happened?" BUT I mean, who keeps a diary anyway?! Diaries are for kids who keep track of where they went for the weekend, movies they watched, teenagers with crushes, or for puppy love revelations. Adults tend to be ‘busy’ living a life and would rather keep their thoughts in the closet or hide it under the bed. I don’t know anybody who keeps a diary, do you?
Then again, we may be slacking a little bit for not making our journals and diaries! Especially now in this internet age where everything is but a click of a mouse, there’s no better avenue than the world wide web to share our experiences to the rest of the globe. I think all of us should start somehow and soon! Everyone of us has something to say and has something to learn from one another. So here I am opening my life, loves, laughs, lunacy and angst to the world!
I have been for the longest time contemplating on posting my own blog. Being a silent fan of bloggers worldwide, I still couldn’t give myself a push. For lack of inspiration, I couldn’t start. Finally, I say to myself: "just open a notepad and command your depleting brain cells to work!" It couldn’t have been better timing that I should force myself to begin today. Today actually marks my graduation from college, well ten years earlier! Staring at the monitor for the last three hours and three paragraphs later, I did it! But egad! I was forcefully hoping, trying, scrimping to write my best opening line you know, and all I could come up was: "It took me three hours to write this line." That’s not exactly a line that would go classic and be immortalized… It’s a start nonetheless. Am working on it.
I don’t know what my blog would be about. Just like my favorite dish of all time, sinigang. You know it’s going to be sour but how sour? You know there would be a myriad of ingredients but how many? You know it’s going to be good but how good? Bad but how bad? Ugh. You know you can mix in fish, shellfish, shrimp, pork, beef or even chicken but what’s it gonna be today? You know you can cook it laboriously, the way your lola (grandma) does- boiling the tamarind, mashing and squeezing the juice out of it for the broth, letting the meat simmer for what seem like eternity, carefully choosing the vegetables to put in the pot- OR the way WE do it the quickest way, thank heavens for sinigang mix! It would be that- predictable in its unpredictability. I’d like it to just evolve over time.
I may write things that may irrate, offend or confuse other people. I may write nonsensical stuff. I may have some typos, grammatically incorrect sentences, convoluted ideas, scandalous remarks! Just let it be. Better still, let me know. I’d openly welcome comments, jeers, cheers, disputes? contradictions, oppositions, confirmations, affirmations, what have you? Be forewarned though. THIS is a weblog (blog)! If you’re one of those shitty heads whose main ambition in life is to ruin a blogger’s morale by commenting on them to stop writing and stop talking about themselves. I say to you now, get a f***ing clue! A blog more than anything is a personal journal. A personal diary that is readily made available for you and me to read. This is what blogging is all about! I know your kind. You nibble, munch, chew on other people’s work, dwell on it and spit it out after you realize that their’s is a better meat than yours, you arrogant, insecure, pathetic loser! If you think you’re oh so perfect and find everyone else’s work boring, why are you even reading this blog?! Do you even have your own blog to begin with? Do you have a published work? Do you have a national bestseller? Do you have a phd?! Go ahead,comment on our subjects but stick to it- the subject! Sneer on our opinions, thank you. Call our posts lame, you’re free to say that. BUT you don’t have any right to tell us to shut up! You don’t like reading me so far? Tell you what, go to File on your computer screen, there. Scroll that pointer down to the last command named Close, now click it! OR spare you the trouble, see that little box at the top most right corner of your window screen? That square red thing with an ‘x’ on it? That’s total control over there! I bestow upon you now the power to close down websites you couldn’t stand. Just click on the red square ‘x’ thing and it will close all your bad childhood recollection! Feeling better? Now, get a f***ing life!
Whoa! My first blog and already my sarcasm is showing! Come join me in this exciting world of blogging! It’s never too late to start. Leave some footprints, leave a mark to the world. You’re the author of your life, Go write it! Who cares if nobody reads it today. It’s there for all to read one day soon! Besides, more than wanting readership it’s the liberating feeling that goes with writing that should stir us to do it. What it all comes down to is that it is between you and your computer.
It took me over three hours to write this entry. There.
